Tonight, Lay Me Down, suddenly popped out of my playlist and I thought of you.
followed by Mariah’s Bye Bye.
I knew I will be doomed.
I miss you, big time! No words can accurately describe how I feel but this is not even close. I love you, my heart hurts so much.
I wish I could understand the reason for why you had to leave. 2 years have passed and as I go through my life I always think about what if.
What if we get to be together a little longer.
What if you get to live a little more.
What if you made the right choices.
I just miss making plans with you. We had soooo much plan that never included this. It only feels like yesterday. Everything happened in just like a snap and it feels like just as soon as you came, you were taken away.
I still have your videos saved, I just can’t delete it. I play it every single time I miss you.
I have so much to talk to you about like how my bad dreams are bugging me, work, and more. I don’t have anyone to read my (bad) stories anymore. I have no more confidence in writing because I, my worst critic is doing her job..
I thank God for every day and many times in between for a blessing like you. Enjoy your rest my dear. Sing your heart out. I hope heaven is everything you thought it would be.
One day I will see you again. And we can spend so much time catching up not giving a damn about how much time we have left. So for now, I am sure that you’re happy, I am too. It’s just that I wish there’s a yearly phone call to heaven for all the people we love. Haha
Until we meet again. I’ll be okay, don’t worry.
Well, I’m lost right now. But at least, I can see the moon up here
I promise ❤
Ps: please be a woman in afterlife so that my mom and venise’s will allow you to have a sleepover with us.