Happiness and contentment can be found in simplicity.
Fulfillment and success can be found in humility.
art from Birch & Button
every time my hands get cold and pale
nanay used to hold my hands
So, every time nanay’s hands get cold,
I learned to do the same.
7 months ago,
Exactly during the cold rainy night of August
We were in a place surrounded by wonderland of clean sterile environment that smells strongly like cheap disinfectant
It was midnight,
I sat on one of the two chairs beside the bed
I noticed something, she doesn’t look okay.
nanay’s hands got so cold.
Soooo cold that it made everyone
come rushing into her room.
My hands are cold.
I was not frightened nor was I was afraid.
What I felt was beyond mere nouns.
I froze for a moment.
What went wrong??
I tried to hold her hands
for a few seconds,
for a few minutes,
for almost an hour
but that night was different,
nanay’s hand stayed cold for a long time.
I realized that her hands can get even colder.
and that night,
I realized that
I’ll never again,
feel nanay’s warmth.
I miss my grandma.
Life was never easy.
Everytime I feel the hard time had just passed away, life gives me that bitchy smile, laughs the loudest sarcastic laugh it could.
Death is easy to embrace
but there I was.
I still chose life.
for this is what life wants from you; it wants you to live it to the fullest.
Life is when you face it all.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
I haven’t posted anything lately because I have been so busy.
Thank you 2017 for the ups and the downs. Thank you for making me feel best and worst at the same time.
I am the kind of person who doesn’t ask for too much but hey, God is good for giving me just the right amouny of everything.
Thank you for making me realize that I am starting to live my life…. again
bring it on.
“The poetry of Earth is never dead. ” – John Keats
It is so good to wake up thinking about there will be no quiz and no exams….
because it’s vacation time!!!!!
And congratulations to me for surviving my third year in the university!
tho I still have a thesis defense next week.
This school year, I have been challenged to go through a lot of things.
I never even had the minute to update my blog.
But hey I’m so back.
I’ll be writing a lot starting today.
All the love,