ugly

you want me to seal these lips from the world;

so you can rise from my silence

you call me weak

so you can stand tall on false righteousness.

I will bot be tamed to be the woman you enslave with your pious approval

beauty isn’t something foreign to my repertoire

You just shamed me into painting it ulgy

We could die, anytime

At any given moment, we could die.

There could be an accident, a crash, the whole word could explode.

The worst part would not be dying

it would be

dying with the regret and saying

“I wish I did that…”

Live your life to the fullest!

Skeleton in the Closet

Let me tell you a secret.

It doesn’t matter how bad you think you are at something. There’s always going to be someone who loves what you create. In the same breath, it doesn’t matter how good you think you at something.

There’s always going to be someone who hates what you create. You don’t need to be everyone’s cup of tea. Everytime you pick up that pen or that brush or whatever it is, you’re improving. There’s no way for you to get worse.

So there’s no absolute point in quitting.

If you’re in it to please everyone.

You might be doing something wrong.

On Becoming a Teacher

Today, I had a chance to contemplate the profession I have chosen.

Right now, I am in my third year in college (and now, I can’t back out).

To be honest, when I graduated high school I didn’t know that I will be taking this path. Like if someone told me in high school that I will take this course, I’d probably just laugh. Or slap them back and forth. But hey! Look! It’s my third year!

To be honest, being a Teacher was not on my plan. I honestly wanted to become a writer or a pilot or a flight attendant or a neurosurgeon. But you know, we really can’t tell everything. We plan but things always turn out differently from the way we planned them.

The next thing I know I was in front of the university director for an interview. She said I am qualified for the following courses:

1. Mechanical Engineering

2. Electrical Engineering

3. Business Administration Major in Human Resources

4. Secondary Education Major in English

To be honest, I contemplated everything. And this is the only school I passed my papers to. So I had to choose.

1. Mechanical Engineering – Math won’t work for me. I might spend a lifetime in that program lol

2. Electrical Engineering – Math won’t work for me.

3. Business Administration Major in Human Resources – no more slot

4. Secondary Education Major in English

Yes. I had no choice.

But,

for the past two years, I have learned to love my chosen path.

I enjoy university life. I like my blockmates, I like my professors (especially Ma’am Fed), and I like studying literature, grammar, and all the professional education and English stuff. I enjoy demo teaching and field study!!

At some point in our lives, we had to choose between things we should or we must but we’ll learn to love our choices in time.

And I think that’s okay.

Because the best things in life are the ones we did not expect at all.

I sometimes get so scared, like what if I fail the LET, if I can’t handle students. At this point, I think it’s fair enough just to say that I will trust the process lol