19th Birthday

It’s Christmas Day today! and it’s my 19th birthday too! Merry Christmas everyone, I hope you had a blast! We’re almost on the final week of the year! It’s a brand new year and a brand new start!

Have a blessed season full with love and sharing!

LATELY…

How am I feeling?

I am feeling happy these past few weeks with all my college friends and family. Something is just so amazing about them. And right now, I just feel so ecstatic that I had to write this blog. Today was fun, I spent the day with my family. I’m glad that Christmas and my birthday fall on the same day because who needs expensive and materialistic gifts when I get to see my family — the best gift ever.

… and right now, I just feel so overwhelmed by the gifts I have received from everyone.

What I’ve been up to lately?

I am up for the season and by that it means that I’ve been keeping myself busy with a lot of things. We went to Intramuros last week just to get inspired, we also had a caroling session to help the kids in an orphanage, we had gift giving for the children in the community and of course I was quite busy looking for something I can give to my godchildren.

Reading

Sophie’s World by Jostein Gaarder. I started to read this after seeing this on the list of recommended books in Goodreads and the synopsis really caught my attention. It’s something like a book about philosophy and it’s my first time read something written by Jostein Gaarder so I am very psyched to read this. This book is my 99th of 100 in the One Hundred Books Challenge this year and I am pretty confident that I am not going to fail on the challenge.

Watching

Harry Potter Series!!!! Christmas wouldn’t be complete without Harry Potter movie marathon! This is like a tradition!!!

Listening

Since 2011, I always find myself listening to Justin Bieber’s Under the Mistletoe Album. Of course I’m a belieber *winks*

and it just feels so good to listen to Justin (it’s always the most beautiful time of the year)

Thinking

Loved ones who are in heaven.

Thought of the day:

So, we fight, so, we fight through the hurt, through the hurt
And we cry and cry and cry and cry
And we live, and we live, and we learn, and we learn
And we try and try and try and try

Excerpt Entry #1 : Goodbye

“She was light and sunshine. Every room she walked into light up like nothing I’d ever seen before. She smiled at everyone, talked and laughed” he choked on the words blurring on the paper in front of him.

“She was one of a kind. Always trying to the good in everyone around her, even if they gave her reasons not to”, he wiped away a tear on the back of his too new suit.”But I guess she never saw what everyone else did. She was fighting a darkness inside her no one could see. She was a mess but still managed to smile for us”

Her mother sobs in the front pew, her father holding her tightly, trying to keep her together. “But even though she was a fighter. This was one fight she couldn’t do forever”, his voice shakes as he looks over the coffin. “I’ll always remember her, I’ll always love her, and I hope that she isn’t in the dark anymore”

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Hi everyone! Let’s bring light for the people who are suffering in darkness. Let us be there for them and listen to their silent cries.

Ocean Blues

There this was this period in my life not too long ago in which I would go the beach almost every other day because its summer, its vacation and I have time. After our morning jog, it was fun to just say “Let’s go to the beach!” and just walk there and just collect shells or run from the tide.

I miss the beach, I always miss listening to its symphonic monotonous tone, the soft sand, the wind that seemed to glide with the beat and the crashing waves that make me feel that I can yell and no one can hear me. With the sea, you can cry and it just fades into the roar of the waves because it’s close to infinity as we can get.

Now that I’m stuck in school and home, I can’t steal time from my schedule and certain things give me the most nostalgia of the ocean whenever I encounter poems and stories or see a painting of an ocean. Or when I’m close to a pool in some places I go and I smell the chemicals, I get really sad and nostalgic. The sea felt like home than anything else in this world.

I want my ashes thrown in the ocean so that when ever my loved ones visit my grave and are reminded of what I used to be, they are staring at a beautiful blue sea.

J.